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[ Saturday  
14th 05 @ 11:34pm



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[ Saturday  
14th 05 @ 2:08pm
[ mood | curious ]

I'm gonna make a mistake
I'm gonna do it on purpose

I'm gonna waste my time
'coz I'm full as a tick

and I'm scratching at the surface
and what I find is mine
and when the day is done and I look back
and the fact is I had fun fumbling around

all the advice I shunned
and I ran where they told me not to run
but I sure had fun,

so I'm gonna fuck it up again
I'm gonna do
another detour
unpave my path

and if you wanna make sense
whatcha looking at me for

I'm no good at math

and when I find my way back
the fact is, I just may stay, or I may not
I've aquired quite a taste
for a well-made mistake
I wanna make a mistake - why can't I make a mistake

I'm always doing what I think I should
almost always doing everybody good

do I wanna do right
of course but:
do I really wanna feel I'm forced to
answer you,
hell no

I've aquired quite a taste
for a well-made mistake, I wanna
make a mistake, why can't I make a mistake
I'm always doing what I think I should
almost always doing everybody good

buy it all

[ Thursday  
12th 05 @ 3:06pm
[ mood | urrrg. ]


BAN ____Collapse )

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dear ugh! [ Wednesday  
11th 05 @ 5:26pm
[ mood | calm ]

they have her figured out or so they believe
after all she wears her heart on her sleeve
and sure her feelings show from the look in her eyes
you can tell she's pissed off you can tell she's alright
but they have no clue what she goes through inside
they don't know they can't handle what she dreams at night
they always assume and don't even ask if they're right
until they do she'll fight herself as she dies inside
so far from light, far from anyone who will listen to her tonight
lost in the headphones she sits and gets lost in her head
and thinks would anyone die for me if i was their friend
although she'd never doubt it for a second
sometimes it seems people need to be second-guessed
there's no one to trust if everyone's fighting for themselves
and she feels like there's nowhere to escape from this hell
but oh they can tell, they can definitely tell
and they tell each other when she's in heaven and when she's in hell
but god forbid they stick by her side
it's not like it's hard to make her feel alive
a bipolar state some say she's in
light spirits mixed with dark depression
but god forbid they stick by her side
god forbid they hear her out
god forbid she has somewhere to go
god forbid there's a way to escape from your own life
cause everyone needs it, a vacation from their own life sometimes
or at least an escape from the words and the lies
and the assumptions... of course it's a figment of her imagination

she's loved and she's cherished she just needs to be told it sometimes
she needs to hear she's beautiful
although she knows she wouldn't truly believe it if it was said
buy it all

[ Sunday  
8th 05 @ 1:14pm
[ mood | silly ]

nothing new has been going on...

I GOT A NEW DIGITAL CAMERA-- i am super excited, it's probably the highlight of my life. haha just kidding but you should check out the like tons of pictuers i have already taken in like the 4 days i've had it at    www.picturetrail.com/xdeex3

I have had so much work this whole week and its strange because i physically don't remember the last time that I did homework. Also-- i think that i am going for a record of getting caught by ALL 6 of dianne's teachers trying to get dianne out of class--- dam that girl needs her cell back haha.

Does anyone know when saint mary's fair is -- cuz i sooooo need to get in on the action there lol. I'm hoping its the week of the 20th cuz then i could go to miami and the fair but if its the last weekend in may then I will have to pick maimi/fair miami/fair... ugh this is a hard one.        ... also mall on friday: let me know if you wanna go.

i just want to say one more thing--- i hate when people talk shit.. seriously. like when people have problems in a certain aspect of thier own lives they think they have the rright to mess that thing up in other peopel's lives? like give me a break (woah i sounded ditzy when i said that) anyway.. i'm down with my copmlaining now

                     // dee

- let's destroy eachother cause we're too cool for for love lines & soft kisses over cheap wine. smoke me baby like your last cigarette and whisper to me say you`ll never forget. Could you break my heart a little more?! Shove my body up against yours and kiss me like you mean.

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[ Thursday  
5th 05 @ 5:02pm
[ mood | overworked--DAMM english paper ]

My five random thoughts of the moment //

[x] do lions live in the jungle?
[x] how do they get the dot in the middle of a cheeze
[x] i wonder what i would be doing right now if i wasn't
     grounded :-/
[x] how unbelievable it is that i am going to babysit at 
     7:30 AM saturday!!!
[x] how much i miss ~lemonade~

comment random thoughts.
||| dee |||

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[ Monday  
2nd 05 @ 3:58pm
[ mood | apathetic ]

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

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[ Sunday  
1st 05 @ 7:02pm
[ mood | crazy ]

Because in a sense, it's the coming back, the return which gives meaning to the going forth. We really don't know where we've been until we've come back to where we were. Only, where we were may not be as it was because of who we've become. Which is, after all, why we left.     

buy it all

new layoutt. [ Thursday  
28th 05 @ 8:44pm
[ mood | crazy ]

 |NeW|  ~ l a y o u t ~


do you l0ve it???

        .... or do you l0ve it?


Nothing to much... has been going on just figured i would update since i was changing the journal anyway.



DEE         xoxox



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[ Monday  
25th 05 @ 9:57pm
[ mood | content ]

This weekend was....


whats the word?? .... trying?

            >> not all of it was bad though. i started talking with an old friend and i talked to him A LOT ALOT ALOT this weekend and it was super super refreshing next to all of the bullshit going on. i love when things get okay after being messed up... very good feeling, haha. i guess everything turned out okayyy with all my problems. other than that nothing to much happened this weekend;  i slept a lot and had to go to my grandparents for a couple of hours on saturday but i slept the whole time there.

the doctor called today and my mono went down from     64 to 16.... amazing since i don't understand how that is possible but i'm happy... that made my shot at going to MORP a lot better.... except..

            M O R P       - GOT

CANCELED>.... urrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggg

Today wasn't a too bad monday... i got to sleep in and went to school late. i skipped 4th hour to go to lunch with the best girl evver! i love her soo much and if she ever scares me again i will kill her myself (love you bitch!). Went two 2 classes and came home. didn't do anything.


I found out my parents may be going away during hte summer for 11 days... and i get to stay alone at my house with *frequent* check - ins from my grandparents meaning 11 day party at my house hahaha. CROSSING

                      MY FINGERS!!!!



"Don't waste me....    I'm your one and only love"

---   the ultimate fakebook.

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[ Saturday  
23rd 05 @ 10:44pm
[ mood | so sad. ]

And...   as        my broken heart

                   lies bleeding

You say true love in suicide



1 // buy it all

[ Saturday  
23rd 05 @ 1:38pm
[ mood | heart-broken ]

"I guess when you're heart gets broken,

 you start to see cracks in everything"



1 // buy it all

[ Thursday  
21st 05 @ 4:34pm
[ mood | "naturally im enthralled" HAH ]

it's been a while bitches.


hm... I don't think to much has been going on. I've been going to school--- BORE. I've been catching up on a lot of sleep though-- in class. haha. I have been doing this stupid project for english and me and casey had to do the whole fucking thing and my group didn't do shit. fuck them, i better get the whole grade with casey, haha. Uhm.. whatelse... roman and joe in the library with dianne ahaha hm.. NO. Wednesday we had a half day and i went home with my babyy boyy. I had the best time *ever* i love him soo much. Today (thursday) was totally boring, and i had to go into school early to use dianne's book to do the hw i forgot to do last night... slept through english except when i was going my presentation. oh, and i hate math and don't understand it worth shit... thats pretty much it.


going back to the doctor tomorrow.... ugh i hope i don't still have mono... although i know i do after yesterday (totally worth it!).  Movie night with dianne tomorrow... we are watching SALENA>> i watched part of it in spanish and it almost made me cry (the 20 minutes i saw)


I wanna find a sweet concert to go to over the summer. I wanted to go to Anger Managment with i think D12, 50cent, Eminem and stuff, but thats probably going to fall into the category of things i can't do being a "unrespondible and nontrustworth" teen that i am since its only a couple weeks away.

                                 Any suggestions anyone?


                          Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
                                            These are the
best days of our lives.
                                                    The only thing that matters
                                                   is just following your
                                        and eventually you'll finally get it right.


5 // buy it all

[ Sunday  
17th 05 @ 3:52pm
[ mood | bitchy ]

what i like about you

you really know how to dance

when you go



jump around

talk about true romance

keep on whispering in my ear tell me all the things that i wanna hear

cuz its true thats what i like about you

thats what i

like about you


buy it all

[ Saturday  
16th 05 @ 11:39am
[ mood | crazy ]

There was a girl i knew who always wanted to be the one to stand out from the crowd
Always believe that she was gonna live her dreams..
Thats what when down, was gonna come around for all the
Doubters non believers the cynical that once were dreamers..
One of these days you'll open up your eyes and you'll realize ..

That girl was a one

time teenage drama queen

A hot, tough everyday wannabe...but she'll have changed her destiny.. now she's a somebody.
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself.
Cuz she believes in nothin else and you'll look back and you won't believe that girl was me.

Armed with an attitude that she knows how to use.
She's gonna get there any way she can.
Now she knows what she wants no one is gonna stop her nothings ever gonna hold her down.
For all the doubters non believers the cynical that once were dreamers..
One of these days you'll know that you were Wrong..(who would know)

That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe...but she'll have changed her destiny.. now she's a somebody.
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself.
Cuz she believes in nothin else and you'll look back and you wont believe that girl was me.

Life is a work of art you gotta paint it colorful,
Can make it anything u want don't have to stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ to succeed in what you do,
You just gotta have no doubt just believe in yourself.

Doubters, non-believers.. once were dreamers.
One of these days you'll open up your eyes... and you'll realize

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[ Thursday  
14th 05 @ 5:58pm
[ mood | relaxed ]

haven't updated in a WHILE...

nothing much has been goin on--- still missing some school. I have been sleeping in like 1/2 the week and only going to school for half days. I have that spanish benchmark to make up tomorrow, and if i don't do good well lets just say i'm gonna be missing a credit, haha. It's all good though as long as i'm not grounded---- and its not all good at the moment. :-\.


          I'm a little left of center
            I'm a little  out of tune
         Some say i'm paranormal
         so i just bend their spoon

           who wants to be ordinary
         in a crazy-mixed up world?

     I don't care what they're saying
        as long as i'm      your girl



p.s. leave a commenttttttt, melonheads.

2 // buy it all

[ Monday  
11th 05 @ 6:15am


I get to

go to school





1 // buy it all

[ Saturday  
9th 05 @ 11:54am
[ mood | flirty ]

hmm... i haven't updated

         in a couple days.

thursday was pretty fun, haha. except i didn't get to see my favorite girl in the world [dianne]... cuz let's just say she didn't quite make it to my house that day. my baby boy came over though and that was fun, then he left, then he came back with OG [g'd up from the feet up], and then they left before my mom came home.


friday i went to the doctor. i was SOOOOOOOOOOO pissed, because the doctor told me that i could have been going to school this whole time as long as i felt up to it, and not worn out. i was soo mad now i have so much homework to do and i sat around bored all day every day. after the doctor i dropped by central and saw some of my favorite people!!!!!!!!!! it made me really sad though cuz i was giving everyone hugs and i miss everyone sooo much cuz i haven't seen them since 3 days before spring break cuz i missed school to go to miami.                  later that night dianne came over and we walked around, met up with our boys, and then hung out. oh, and well we thought we came up with some plans before, we really got this one made.... and this one is definetly to elite individuals, definetly.


I'm soo excited to

go back to school!!!!!


                    ``--- ~ Deeeee ~ --->

for after all, the best thing one can do when its raining is to let it rain>> comment bitches

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[ Wednesday  
6th 05 @ 7:35pm
[ mood | giddy ]

UGH.... remember when i would say sleep was amazing? yes not when you have 2 weeks to do it for 24 hours a day.... ahhhhhh i'm bored beyong belief. I am excited cuz i'm going to watch crazy beautiful tomorrow (only the best movie ever!!!!). I've been watching simple life too, thats pretty hilarious.




uhm `--> i would just like to say that me and dianne are probably the best people to come up with a super good plan. and we have probably invented the best one in the whole entire world and if no when (haha dianne) we pull it off we can definetly be known as the best plan people    IN THE WORLD. haha.


        ¤  D E  ¤

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[ Saturday  
2nd 05 @ 7:36pm
[ mood | dorky ]

... new colors // no biggie

Still not doing anything. Still bored. Still have mono.

>>>>> comment something for me to read, i'll have the time.

trust me


I don't know if there is only one person you're supposed to be with, but when i'm with him it sure feels that way. --- THE O.C. [ 11 ] [ 11 ] [ 03 ]


PS -- anyone heard of the band   

        ... fallout boy     ...? I just downloaded a bunch of their songs and they're hot.


                              x 0 Xo    deE

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